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12月31日 2006.. looking backIts still 30th December(EST) here as I writing this blog after a break of more than a year.. Retrospecting I feel that it has been a happening year for me in all fronts. The year kick started with me joining my research group (MSL) here at MIT. I was pretty much decided what I was looking for to learn from the group and the type of work I was going to do. As the general protocol, I had to first check how my professor was when it comes to work and student relationship. I found out that he was a pretty nice character which kind of predicted the gala time i was going to have with the group (no punn intended). Second semester was kind of important to me because of grades and the PhD qualifying exam which I was going to take. My professor was kind of surprised hearing that I was taking the qualifiers since I had made it clear to him that I was looking for a Masters. Sometimes its tough to make people understand that desis are so much prone to hedging risks. Anyways, the semester went fine and I also passed the qualifiers and it was time for me to pack bags to go home for a 3 week long (punn intended) vacation. I was really excited and looking forward to this trip and people still think it was foolish for me to start dreaming about Indian a week in advance. But I feel it depends, some people tell it openly some dont and i belong to the first group. The trip to India went by in a flash.. but it was a nice time for me to catch up with friends and family members. After the trip I was back to MIT supposedly working on my project :) Summer was a gala time for all the folks here and we had loads of masti and fun. Alas good time ends soon! Begining for Fall 06 sem, everyone felt screwed up because it meant that the job hunting season had started and every one started cleaning up their guns to poach down the booty. By end of the sem my whole group was placed in some biig shot companies and everyone was happy. The job hunting season needs a seperate blog to illustrate our mixed feelings throughout the process. Anyways, its the end of the year and i am sitting on my ass in front of my lappy pouring out my feelings and my friends are calling me for a party outside... so i will sign of here... will continue... 11月2日 Happy DiwaliFirst of all a very happy n enjoyable diwali to all my friends there...
It was very hard for me to realize and accept the fact that this yr Diwali passed by so quitely... no fun no enthu.. just classes and assignments... It just crossed my mind that last yr at this time i was at my home with all my cousins enjoying the festivals of light and gambling like hell... Just before diwali we had few sessions of teen patti at iit and we also lit some crackers... I still remember that we got around 2 boxs of bomb and bursted them in front of ABot late at nite when half of guys were asleep... That time juggar came out and tried to put up some competition with his "tuchch" mirchi bomb... It was great fun and aayush got after him till he verbally F* the guy inside out :))
I suppose we are having some sort of diwali night on coming friday, which is organized by Sangam~ mit indian students group. I hope it turns out to be fun... 10月29日 Finally its the time to break my silenceIts really strange for me to believe at this juncture of time when i am at a perpetual high that I have completed over two moths of my f* stay at US of A... But the bottom line has been simple and plain.. this place sucks.. I still think of my friends @ iit and school friends when i am free instead of the F* thermodynamic, electronic, econmics or finance course that i aam doing... The overall experience at MIT has been seriously overwhelming.. when I retrospect i feel i have underestimated mit last 2 months.. i think because of this single reason i have taken 4 courses when it was expected from us to take just 2 course... I have just first my first mid sem exam and have got raped in the first exam of ThermoD.. i always thought i was a stud in this field after i maxed this course at iit but after getting an average score at mit i knew that it was a death knell for me and i started mugging up my balls from next day.. The other 3 exams that follwed went on quite well.... so i have just a single task at hand right now that is to take care of my TheroD course and thats it..
Apart from studies I have found many interesting things happening at mit like the pubs disc etc.. but at the end of the day i always get a feel i am not meant to be at these places.. I have much better things to do in life than wasting my time seeing the dumb skin show and grinding.. after my first exp. at the disc here i had quite explicitly pointed to my other iitm friends here that i was not fit to be a part of this show.. i some time feel so awkward and out of place seeing these stuff.. the thin line b/w morality and *** is broken down so easily and at the end of the day some u can always find a bunch of bastards who would defend their position on some F* absurd ground.
The good news is that i have found some good people down here and am enjoying my time wid them.. i will continue after a small break...
Ashish 8月22日 RetrospectionIt seems as if I am standing on the crossroad of my life, at a point where future definitely looks bright but the immense and potent presence of my past is pulling me back. Tomorrow I am heading to Delhi to take my flight so it was my last day at Lucknow... Relatives poured in since morning as I continued checking my baggage again and again very confident that there was only an iota possibilty that I would leave something back home. Still I was not tensed because even if i missed something i would buy it in US..
There was a strange feeling of silence inside me today, every thing seemed so temporary, so indifferent.. The silence was simply deafening... When I entered my grand ma's room I was really taken aback... My grandma was lying on her bed, all helpless and bed ridden for last couple of years... I could feel the immense amount of pain she must be enduring... Suddenly I had some flashes of my past childhood days when I saw her as a grand figure full of poise and authority and today she was simply lying in her shabby clothes... A deep sense of fear crept into me as I thought "was it the last few days I was spending with my grandma?" I just looked at the photo of Jesus hanging near her bed and silently prayed to God to give her enough power to stand the test of time... Even the sense of her gracious presence was enough for us... I hope with full hearts that my prayers will be heard...
I could even sense a feeling of emptiness in the faces of my parents but the cold war continued till late afternoon as I was unable to talk much... I have no clue from where this feeling of leaving something behind has crept into my mind, but it did have a great impact on me atleast for today...
As I head to the great MIT, I just hope it turns out to be a place like I imagined it to be...
Final word... " I have miles to go before i sleep...." 8月21日 Just a thoughtI was supposed to leave for Delhi today if my travel agent had not been so careless wrt my luft tix. But the better part is that I have got another 48 hours in Lucknow because of him :))
Today it was again a kina happening day for me... Even though I got up very late I managed to complete all the left over works. In the evening I removed the 200 Gb HDD from dd after which all the problem started.. The BIOS refused to detect my HDD and I did everything I could to make it do so... CPU ki battery nikaal di sab kar liya lekin kuch fayda nahin... Finally I did something with the cables made my cdrom as primary and HDD as secondary aur fir detect ho gaya.. EUREKA!! I discovered my comp has gone berserk!!
I did something wrong while trying to get my hdd detect.. the after effect of this mistake was that I had to format my comp again :(( I am already tired installing everything over again..
But it has been a good time pass for me as I virtually had nothing to do since late evening...
Another thing which I want to add is that today I met Kartik Bansal and Rohit Suri at Barrista :) They happen to be my pals from SFC. Kartik was there till 12th but Rohit had left the school after 10th... It was a real pleasure catching up wid old pals :))
8月19日 IITK friends drop byYesterday I called up Inzaghi and asked him if he had ne plans of coming to lucknow... At first instance he was reluctant but jab dosti ki baat aati hai to Guddu bhayya to bhokaal ho jaate hai ;) He said to me that he would try his best to come along with gagga... I asked him to get me a calci and a book from IIT as I would need it at MIT for studies...
Today I got up at around 9.30am and saw a missed call from guddu bhayya... I called him back and was excited to know that he was near Sarojninagar and would be at Lucknow in another 15 minutes. Some how I managed to get ready and reach the station in time... Inz n Gagga were waiting there for last 10 minutes. I picked them up n brought them straight to my house. At around 11 we decided to go around the city. Charsi n Fubu had also come from IIT so we all decided to meet at CCD Hztganj. Then we went to wave after having a caffiene kick and I learnt that red eye was not some add on but extra expresso shot at ccd.. I felt really ashamed as I thot myself to be a veteran at CCD ;)
Wave mein aakein sekhne ke baad I decided to take them to a place near Anand Cinema Hall for lassi.. But they were out of stock bcz of Raksha bandhan... Inz n gagga made some fun of me but nothing could be done.. The lassi plan was dropped and we headed for Pizza Hut.. Pizza there was not very good and far below my expectations. I remember the last time when i went there with Aayush n Farhan it was much better.. Khair, nothing could be done for it..
Now we are back at my place.. Inz n gagga r in a process of taking a siesta while i write this blog :)
They will wake up by 6.30pm and I am going to take them to have some chaat n kulfi... thats the plan for now..
Rest of the updates will be up by night time... so keep reading ;)
Chaat khila diya finally... ask guddu for comments :)
Kulfi khaane se guddu n gagga ne mana kar diya :( pata nahin kyo .. lag raha tha ki pet bol gaya hai :))
8月18日 Day outIt was a happening day for me.. Got a lot of work done.. Got the DL finally and came to terms with the level of corruption which has percolated in the system :))
Finally I got the ticket for Air France. Actually I was very surprised that even after blocking my ticket 2 months in advance the Lufthansa people did not finally release my ticket. The only problem I face now is the baggage limit which is down from 90 kgs to 66kgs now. But I feel that would be enough for me.. Neways I have still not weighed my baggage ;) There is also a restriction on the numer of bagage that can be carried, so I bought a really biiiiig suitcase today which I hope will do the trick.
As the day progressed it became hot n humid and I was waiting for the rain God to burst, but who knew that the rain god was late by 5 hours :))
I got a chaapu looking frame for myself and got it fitted with antiglare plastic glasses. I hope it would be ready by saturday. By 4 pm I was back at my abode finally looking to sneak a lil siesta ;) I dosed off at around 5pm, then suddenly my cell rang... Bad luck, a guy was on line who had broken such a lovely dream of mine.. :((
Anirvan Dutta, my school mate was shouting something on line...Before I got back to senses I realized we had to meet today.. i quickly got up and drove to ganj where he was waiting for me... But bad luck, i ran out of fuel and realized I had to charge up the thirsty engine with some diesel before it gave up... Khair finally I was there...
We talked about our school days and it was nice to find that he remembered most of us even though he left SFC way back in '97. Sharp memory indeed. We spent some 2.5 hours together at Barrista where I had 4 expresso and finally felt that I was heading for a caffiene shock... By this time the cloud was already at a burst and I saw drenched up people managing to find some cozy n dry place around... Suddenly I saw Shahnaz Hussain (wahi cosmetic waali) enter Barrista followed by some crazy looking people. I think she came there looking for some place to protect herself from Indra (rain god)...
Finally the evening came to an end and we parted with a promise to keep in touch n exchange regular mails..
I had made up plan to buy a pair of formal shoes before leaving home, but could'nt accomplish the plan..
Fortunately there was an excuse that because of rains i could not execute my plans properly ;)
So i am back giving final touches to my paper... I surely hope to mail it to sir by tomorrow if I dont find some better excuse ;)
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